I haven't been this frustrated and angered by the medical profession in months.  The doctor I saw today had, I think, written me off before she stepped into the room.  The words I said were discounted and my symptoms ignored.  


      She made a statement and made a reference to a condition that I don't have.  I corrected her - yes, it was a correction, I don't have Orthostatic Hypotension, I have Neurally Mediated Hypotension - she literally rolled her eyes and smirked as she responded to me.  Her  response was that she knew the difference between the two.  Part of me doesn't care if she does or not, that condition isn't in her specialty and I've had several doctors ask me about the condition because they're not too proud to admit that they don't know everything and they're willing to learn.  Part of me cares because she was using that condition to discount the symptoms that she was supposed to be seeing me about.  What really bothered me was her attitude.  The eye roll I'm sure she thought was her "inside voice", as well as the smirk.  Those things do escape sometimes, and I saw them.  They were giveaways to the attitude that she had before she came into the room.


     Her diagnosis was that the symptoms I have are.....nothing medical, and not caused by anything medical.  I've already had a neurologist see physical changes that she said weren't there.  So I'm left questioning how valid her entire exam was.  99% of me wants her diagnosis to be correct because that would mean that there's nothing wrong with me, well nothing physically wrong anyway!  Which would mean I've got another problem entirely..... The other 1% wants her diagnosis to be correct but is afraid that it isn't, because my symptoms DO exist, and I don't think they're just in my head.  I trust the neurologist who saw the physical changes.  So when I get home tomorrow, from the next test that's lined up, I'm going to start looking around for a second opinion.  Not with her colleagues though.


     My other wonder is....if I had not put on my "current medical condition" list that I have Fibro....would she have taken me seriously?  I may start leaving that off.